I, I feel so alive...

I think I suddenly understand the appeal of fight clubs.

I don't remember the exact quote, but it was something along the lines of how being battered and bruised and seeing those marks and feeling that pain coursing through your body every time contact is made with it, you feel alive. Some strange appeal to it. Some might argue that it's sick. Me? Not so much.

No, I did not get in a fight over the weekend. In fact, I haven't been in a fight since junior high save for the occasional wrestling match with a friend.

But I did injure myself pretty badly while playing disc golf with my dad and brother. Yes, it sounds a bit wussy, admittedly. How can my wiping out while tossing a disc compare to people who fight for fun? It can't. But it's the resulting injuries and that subsequent feeling of "life" flowing through you every time a new wave of pain engulfs your body that is the comparison point.

I am Jack's cold sweat.

I misstepped as I tee'd off on a hole. I lost my balance and jammed my foot in the four-by-four plank at the front of the tee box and did a header. I then rolled into a pile of loose rock and dead branches and wound up on my head. My body balanced in a ball in the air for nearly a second before I completed the tuck and roll.

I tore up my right knee. I've also got minor scrapes on both elbows and my right forearm. There was also that headache that wouldn't quit. All I wanted to do was lie down and sleep the rest of the day. Mild concussion? Perhaps. But I'm still alive today, so it's all good.

I am Jack's smirking revenge.

But it was the pain that I still feel this morning in my leg that has me intrigued. It's not like the pain you feel when you cut yourself or you land on your knee after a fall. This is a searing pain that I only feel when it's touched. There's nothing otherwise. But the smallest thing can set it off. As I slept last night, I rolled on it several times and I woke up ready to scream. I took a shower this morning and was attempting to wash it out and I just couldn't take the water hitting it either directly or indirectly. Heck, the fan in our bedroom blew on it and that set me off.

And the pain felt good. I feel like I'll actually miss it when it heals.

I am Jack's raging bile duct.

How sick am I?

If you care to see it, you can click over to Flickr. I don't recommend doing this while eating. Some of you might not appreciate it. I'm sure many of you have seen worse, but some of you still aren't fans of this sort of thing. Hey, just be happy I'm not posting the picture here thus forcing you to look at it.

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I don't think I'd have the same attitude. I'm allergic to pain.


I am Jack's complete and total sympathy. I hope your knee feels better soon. Or not if you really like it that much. ;-)


I had a similar looking spot only higher up on my leg, it involved roller blades and my inability to "leap frog" a 6X6 fence post. in the immortal words of one Maxwell Smart, "Missed it by that much."

Glad you are feeling alive, sorry that the pressure of someone looking at it makes it hurt.


Apparently you DO know 'Jack'. :o)

Just for the record, a Braves fan would just suck it up and move on.

Heal soon.


Pretty. Looks like my arm after I lost the battle with the wooden gate. Except I am sure that you won't have to go to the doctor to have a piece of wood removed from your wound.

Get better soon.


The visual I have in my head of you doing this is better than any memory you have given me to date. Even better than you taking my sister off my hands. This is just priceless Kevin.

I do hope that your leg feels better soon. That's got to be a real pain in the......well, leg. Hopefully Katie's taking good care of you, she's pretty good at that.


Ouch! That needs a big ole bandaid!


Ouch! Hope it feels better soon!


Stacey, I've never been much for it either until this one. Weird.

holygirl, thanks. I think.

g-man, why in God's name would you want to leapfrog a 6x6 fencepost?

Michelle, while, admittedly, you are quite resilient as a Braves fan (you have to be to endure how many years now of lost World Series?), that doesn't stop you all from whining up a storm. ;-)

Dagny, nah, nothing to be removed other than a few splinters here and there that I decided to take out on my own. I had a round of disc golf to finish!

Scott, thanks for your, er, sympathy?

Bre, I have two gauze pads covering it with an Ace wrap holding them in place.

tori, thanks. We shall see. Might wind up being yet another scar on a broken body.


Yick, too bad I clicked over to Flickr before reading the statement after the link mentioning not to eat while viewing. Looks pretty painful - hope you feel better! Maybe just knowing you made me a little nauseous might improve your day.


I am Jack's amused, albiet belated, commenter.


What's disc golf...

I'm sorry about your knee but the fall did make me laugh. Apparenlty I am one of "those" people! (sorry.)

Geeky Tai-Tai

Will you explain disc golf for us please? I hope your knee heals quickly.


Elaine, yeah, reading before clicking on my site is probably a good idea. ;-)

BA, I knew you'd have fun with that.

Nat and Geeky, perhaps I'll do a post about it soon. Great game.


you should have played pool


I'm scared to think of what would've happened then.


I think I'll pass on the pic, but I hope your knee feels better soon. Knee injuries can really suck.


You know you wanna look. It's calling to you... "Claire, look at me. Look at me, Claire!!!!!"

Eileen Dover

I think you need complete leg-replacement surgery. ;)


That would make for a great photo sequence on the blog, wouldn't it? "This is where the rotary saw first makes contact with my old, crusty thighbone! Look at all the blood!"


You are not a beautiful and unique snowflake. You are the same decaying organic matter as everyone else, and we are all part of the same compost pile.


that pic is wicked. looks like something i would do to myself. ;)


BA, you know your Palahniuk way too well.

Sizzle, funny how we're both posting about injuries within a day or two of each other.

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