I'll take what's real...

At 7:59 p.m. on Wednesday, Nathan will be a week old.

At 7:59 p.m. On Wednesday, Katie and I will have been parents for a week.

<Parents. What a strange concept for us. We've been married just short of 11 years and got to the point where we weren't sure this would ever happen for us.

Now, even though it is a reality, it still doesn't seem, well, real.

I look at Nathan and think that he couldn't possibly be ours.

I keep waiting for the real parents to knock on our door and thank us for babysitting as they take Nathan back and head home.

Even worse, I fear I'm going to wake up and it will all prove to have been some fantastically wonderful dream that has run its course.

I hope this doesn't make me a terrible person.

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Suzanne Apgar

You're just human!! Let's see if you still feel that way as you become more and more sleep deprived.

kapgar


I'm pretty sure I still will. 

Nilsa @ SoMi Speaks

The first months of parenthood is definitely surreal. Amazing, but surreal. Soon enough, though, that cute boy of yours will have you so busy (and maybe even crazed), you won't have time to think about how weird it is that you helped create this beautiful creature.

kilax

It's not terrible! It just shows how happy you are... and that you are worried that is all a dream.

I cannot believe it's been a week! I have been thinking about Nathan's arrival for so long (I even had his due date memorzied)... and now he is finally HERE!!!

kapgar


Translation being that it's normal to feel this way?

kapgar


That just means you need to meet the little Wookiee. 

Marie

Stop being so hard on yourself! Also, it's not a dream! Little dude is here to stay, hang around, poop some, cry a bit, coo, and be all sorts of adorable. :) He's so cute! You're such a good dad already.

kapgar

Yes! I would love to!!!


On Wed, Sep 26, 2012 at 8:50 AM, Kevin Apgar <kevinwapgar@gmail.com> wrote:

That just means you need to meet the little Wookiee. 

kapgar


Thanks!

sizzle

You could never be a terrible person. Ever.

kapgar


Thanks, sis.

hello haha narf

i am pretty certain these feelings make you, gulp, normal

kapgar


Normal? Me? NOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

Bob "Pappy" Richardson

The first time you get peed on, or your first "poop-a-geddon" you will never again think that it is a dream. In fact, at that moment you might wish it was.

kapgar


Ha! I dread the day. Though he did target the carpet once already. 

Marty Mankins

All very normal thought processes. When my daughter was born, it was very surreal in many ways, and somewhat "really, this is now a new person in this house" at various times.

Before you know it, you'll be cleaning peanut butter out of your iPhone's dock connector (for me, it was the VCR - how times change)

kapgar


At least a dock connector will be easier than a VCR. Yikes!

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